Self-pity? the self-indulgent belief that your life is harder and sadder than everyone else’s
Self-punishment? a penalty that is imposed on somebody for wrongdoing (and now that somebody is me?)
Self-induced misery? a serious lack of contentment or happiness caused by my brain TO my brain?
I am lost. I don’t even have the confidence to tell if what i am feeling is a true feeling or a great drama/play.
Doubt by everyone else has forced me to question myself the above.
All i know is that i am in this alone.
Recovery ,at the moment, almost sounds utopian.